Judah

A lot of times I catch my self thinking about how life works...
I am pretty sure everyone does...
While looking at God's beauty it blows my mind... God is so great we don't even have the words to describe that does that blow your mind? He created a universe, he created billions of people that live on this earth, he knows each person personally he loves us all... he knows every trouble that we go through, every tear that we shed. We can not ever repay him for what he did... EVER!!! all we can do is worship him and obey him... but how often do we fail? How often do I fail? you know really I kind of lost count...we are the vile creatures that can not even do that right...It often hits me in the head that we are so small by looking at God's glory I see it more and more... God created countless trees and animals, he made the whole universe work and didn't just leave like that like a watch maker... He is here with us in every second of our life... and how often do I notice that? How many times do I run to him during the day? In prayer? I often find my self running to God when I need something or if I am for example outside and see God's glory... sometimes I realize I am Judah I sometimes betray God for what... for something so little and use less. When I was at my church's Friday group, I heard a sermon on this subject. The point really stuck out to me... all the people in the room were asked "How much money would you need to betray Christ?" "would a million be enough? Maybe a billion?  Do you have that amount right now? NO! but why are you betraying Jesus for such a low price... for an unchristian  movie that was worth only $10? Or perhaps for a 3 minute play of an song that doesn't glorify God in any way? I don't realize that really I am a hypocrite... saying that I love God but betraying him by what I do in my daily life...I have so many gray areas in my life that I don't realize are there...we Christians need to get rid of them we need to make it black and white... what else can I bring to you God? nothing but myself.... Jesus payed for all of our sins, he loves us even though we betrayed him... he cares about us even though we spit in his face...We own him our life but even that wont be enough....That's why even though I fail, I will strive to walk with the Lord and be more like him...