I am nothing

Having the joy and peace in your heart is not always easy. Lately I've been kind of feeling down, I found myself not being interested in things, for a few weeks life became gray. I knew that all this is in result of not spending time with the One I long for and the One I love with all of my heart. It was the lack of having that fellowship with God that lifts you high above the clouds. 

Isn't it funny how often we know that we need God more then anything else, but we don't run to Him? Even though we clearly understand He is the one who you never have to wait on, He never cancels on you, He always listens. I am so privileged that I can even call my Saviour my friend. HE is The Friend who went through so much pain and suffering! For who? For me? For a filthy, selfish creature that  can't even stand by her self and needs help in every single portion of her life? How can I ever forget HOW BIG GOD IS? and how small I am? How come I don't run to the water when I am thirsty, I sit still under the hot sun  like a fool and suffer, and only at the end of the day I realize that nothing NOTHING will ever satisfy me, but HIM.